August 2011
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When I’m sitting here Full but empty I imagine you In my life again A perfect space of release Certainty of peace I long for terms To acknowledge this pain From losing you I suffer with words Tossing From here to there No direction Just falling apart Behind these bars I am breathless Listening For any signs That you may still exist I gave sharp ends In hopes of forming lines After lines of poetry...
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of...”
– Mary Anne Radmacher
The Hours...
I guess you can say that I fucked up this morning…but I don’t believe in mistakes. Whatever the outcome…it was meant to be even if I created the situation. I can’t make you understand how it feels to have your heart beating in your hand…the sound is deafening. You become a ticking bomb and blow up everything in your path. Regardless…I love you wholeheartedly.
Today is the day…it’s do or die LOL! I...
Feeling Uneasy...
My head is full of everything and worried about being empty at the end of the day…my day. It’s been awhile because I’m not sure what more I have to say anymore or if I should be wasting time trying to say it. My days are peace filled and angry avoiding. I want so much to just let go and climb back into the womb of the world and forget that I was ever here. That is most days. But tonight…tonight I...
July 2011
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Heartless
Sometimes the morning comes Before I awake Sitting around hoping Much like I used to wait for you I am tired now To the bone even Cramping and bending back To break away From the dust that has settled In my soul I am a rock Revenging my life So carelessly taken prisoner By purgatory of your mind You lie defeated Where you cannot join me Nor seek the liberty I have found ...
“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass; it’s about learning to dance in...”
– Anon
“Some things have to be believed to be seen.”
– Madeleine L’Engle (Many Waters)
“We don’t forgive people because they deserve it. We forgive them because they...”
– Bree Despain (via kari-shma)
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“Praise the God of all, drink the wine, and let the world be the world.”
– French Proverb
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I Love You, Love.
It was only a need to be loved Not that we were in love The way that our mouths opened Without trust Was just a mutual dedication When we longed for the real thing Anything was healthier than empty She filled me up As I occupied her We loved In spite of our hearts We felt like anybody Who was needed by somebody I loved her She loved me When love was something that we both desired More than...
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Should I give up...
I am trying to convey What I am experiencing Is sort of vague At this moment I am just contemplating What to say When I lose you Maybe I could tell you why I am giving up Because that would be easier Than allowing you to continue Pretending that you are clueless She said that she misses me If I leave now I could go backwards To being loved Instead of loving you While you love her I felt dumb...
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Tell Her...
Somebody tell her That I can’t let go And though I have tried I keep finding her In everything I do I try to escape her memories Somebody tell her That I tried moving on But I’m still here dying Waiting to be saved By her Somebody tell her That I’ll do better This time I won’t let go so easily I’ll stay and fight Cause now that she is gone I can’t let go….
~My Heart
June 2011
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“When we speak we are afraid our words will not be heard or welcomed. But when we...”
– Audre Lorde
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Have You Ever?
Ten days since my last blog. So much is happening and so much is changing right before my very eyes. Time is now a mission…I guess it always has been…but now I notice the struggle to live inside defined lines.
I am squeezing, while trying to absorb the madness. Wednesday is my day…my answer to the day after. I’m not holding my breath or assuming anything. A good friend has to let go of something...
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Show me a person who doesn’t value words and I’ll show you a fool.
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“Life would be perfect if: some girls had mute buttons, some guys had edit...”
– Unknown
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For the good times...
I tried everything to lose you, to remove that feeling of needing you, cease your voice riding in my head. But I was going mad, trying to pretend that your hands weren’t there, holding my eyes together tight and wishing you away. You know how to love me, ease those veiled throbs, dig deep to the core of my heart and make me fall apart. I swallowed you, smoldered you, before granting you...
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Day Eleven
Day 11: I have been SUPER bad…no time to really be obsessed with my situation right now. Of course it is clinging to me like a thorn in my ass, but I’ve been able to enjoy the moments in spite of it.
So, I’ve been taking pleasure in some old new things…I mean really enjoying. I can feel my walls falling apart, and I do not fear what will become of it. Me without protection is like a wild fire...
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“I want to have sex with your words, I want to bang your brain!”
– Queen Latifah
May 2011
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“Memories and loneliness look backward…fear looks around…but faith...”
– E.Lynn Harris
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For a GREAT laugh!
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Lines of Liberty
Warden of my prison Keeper of my soul I can survive Without your ends You tear and I sow We make due With what we have I am a survivor And you are a god But we pray together In the dark With no one else listening These veins open up and cry And you are my reaper My soul’s sitter And I believe in euphoria because of you And I get over lows through you We guide each other Into the right Direction To...
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Calm Weather
Day 10: Do I have a reason to fear death…have I not lived…am I not living?
Today has been a breeze and for that reason I have nothing to say. Be back tomorrow.
Enjoy the silence…
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“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is...”
– Mark Twain
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